my mind…my heart

hello ate
claire…
how are you? i miss you ate claire… it’s been so long really since we had the
chance to sit down and talk. i miss doing that with my bestfriend. i miss the
golf course walk. i miss the gazing of the starry skies. i miss the million and
one things that we shared and did together. i miss the home that our arms were
to each other. i know that so many things have transpired in both of our lives
now, details that we can no longer catch up sharing as we did when i was still
there. i miss you te… beyond words… but i want you to know that you keep
that irreplaceable place in my heart. other friends may come just as in your
life so many others have come after i was gone, but no one comes close to who
you are to me. the moments we share together were our moments, just ours. and
they cannot be cheated on, cannot be syndicated. they are wholly yours and
mine. and even now, you remain who you are to me because friendship and love
isn’t confined by time and space. it is what gives us a glimpse of heaven. it
is everlasting. it remains untarnished.
i love you ate claire… for who you are… for everything that you are. to me,
you will always be among the most beautiful women i know. your heart will
always be among the ones with the greatest luster.
you will always be among the best persons i have ever met.
and whether you have a man beside you or not, because God owns you, in my sight
you will always be complete in the person that you are. complete. whole.
beautiful. and i love you. (aisa oliveros manlosa)

–FROM MY BESTFRIEND WHO IS SO FAR AWAY AND WHOM I SO MISS :’(

i have not been able to find a moment to write here, for what to me was such a long spell…mainly because i got so busy and because i have not been struck by the "right" impetus to do so. true there were so many things that have been  grammatically  constructed in my mind, some have been written but i cannot just post it here for a myriad reasons that i choose not to elaborate. but this, this letter, which is so much more than a collection of words that came from her mind is an expression of what is in her heart, an expression that i was not able to put into words myself. the only thing that can best describe the similar longing that i share is the single tear that fell, unbidden and unchecked…true, distance can separate two individuals–the silence may seem deafening at times, broken only by the periodic comes and gos of a communication made possible by the technological advances that man has made to help bridge the separation; the feeling of being so lost, not knowing who to go to, since the one person whom you trust will listen to you in everything, hold your hand and hug you, and make you laugh in the midst of your tears is only near because of the memories; the overwhelming urge to simply ignore all the responsibilities and pack, and without thinking twice bring oneself to that person’s doorstep just so you can do the things that you two so love doing–the void, though at times paralyzing is still a sweet reminder that there will always be that one person whom you know you can count on, whom others can never replace, whose value can never be equalled, and that though far, she will constantly be who she is to you…to me…

i love you too little jeep…and i miss you too…