my mind…my heart

here in my bestfriend’s place…
WHERE?!
…in my bestfriend’s place ;P

yup, i am ("we are" actually, coz my younger sibs are also here) right now at kukong’s place, celebrating christmas eve. his mom adopted us because we are homeless as of the moment. my Ma visited my Pa and we thought it better that they spend the holidays together since they rarely get that chance and we can’t afford to all go there because of the shortage of funds…so we had to sacrifice and stay here in MSU.

this is the most unexpected christmas…never in my most wildest wishful thinking did i ever imagine that i would end up celebrating this particular holiday with my bestfriend and his family, who has become more of a second family to me, but more than that, i am so touched by their kindness…God indeed has ways of handing out the surprise for the day.

so many things has been happening and now this–so many that i was not able to find the time to sit down and put everything into words (it will all be posted soon…). each of the days that passed were simply wonderful that expressing all that i have been through into to words will not give it any justice at all, but i will try and i will start with "now."

in my heart right at this moment is this heartwarming feeling, something that i can never truly describe, for mere words will fall short of what should be done. all i know is that i am so thankful because there are hearts who reached out to us to share not just their house but their home, so we can celebrate with them the beginning of the hope of a once hopeless world, the birth of Christ, which brought forth the salvation of mankind.

the joy that i now have is because God’s love is mirrored in their hearts and it reminded me that truly knowing God’s love is not just speking of it and feeling it but more importantly sharing it to others. No one will ever fathom the depth of God’s love, symbolized by the greatest sacrifice of God giving His Son for the salvation of all sinners, but through the lives of persons like my bestfriend’s and his family, even a heart hardened and the cynical will see hope.

i can never repay them for all that they have done for me, only God can…but in my heart of hearts i know that theirs is a family that will always have me looking up to God and thanking Him, for i know i am truly blessed. all the memories that has been made and will be made tonight i will always carry and will forever remind me that there is no greater love than to lay down one’s life for a friend, a love that was clearly shown to us when Christ died on the cross in exchange for us.

i know i will always look back to this and will carry in my heart the mark that this exerience has made; and along with that will be a prayer that somewhere, somehow there are more families like this family, who are willing to open their hearts to those who need to feel what love truly means.

To Uncle Boy, Auntie Cora, Kuya Tintan, Kukong, Nanan, Tatin, Wawing and Badat:

Thank you so much! These words will never be enough but allow me to say it still…The love that you guys have shown will always serve as an inspiration, and will always remind me that there is so much difference that will be made in acts of kindness such as this. it is my prayer that my life too would serve as a light to others, just as yours did to me and my family, and that you will continue to inspire others with the love that you have shown. The laughter, the cooking session, the eating spree, every single moment will forever be etched in not just my heart but in my siblings’ hearts as well…thank you so so much. I love you guys…God bless you abundantly always! Merry CHRISTmas

a few minutes more and the rain is going to pour…by the looks of it, it will be one heaven of a downpour–hmmm seems like our beach party will not be blessed with "good winds" and we will travelling for an hour enclosed in a carbon monoxide-filled jeepney. i do not really feel like going but i have to, i owe this to a dear friend. i need this too i guess, amidst all the stressful tasks that i hope will finally be done by monday. so…I GOTTA RUN! till next time hehehehe ;P

– to the one who wrote this, I SALUTE YOU!–for being so honest and for the advice, this is one eye-opener…this would do a lot of good to many gals out there.

to all the ladies: READ and LEARN

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn’t want you, nothing can make him stay.

Stop making excuses for a man and his behaviour.

Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.

Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that’s not meant to be

Slower is better.

Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.

If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve

then heck no, you can’t "be friends." A friend wouldn’t mistreat a friend.

Don’t settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.

Don’t stay because you think "it will get better." You’ll be mad at yourself

a year later for staying when things are not better.

The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

Avoid men who have a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.

He didn’t marry them when he got them pregnant,

Why would he treat you any differently?

Always have your own set of friends separate from his.

Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.

If something bothers you, speak up.

Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.

You cannot change a man’s behaviour. Change comes from within.

Don’t EVER make him feel he is more important than you are…even if he has

more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god.

Never let a man define who you are.

Never borrow someone else’s man.

Oh Lord! If he cheated with you, he’ll cheat on you.

A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.

All men are NOT dogs.

You should not be the one doing all the bending…compromise is a two-way street.

You need time to heal between relationships…there is nothing cute about

You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you…a relationship consists

of two WHOLE individuals…look for someone complimentary…not supplementary.

Dating is fun…even if he doesn’t turn out to be Mr. Right.

Make him miss you sometimes…when a man always know where you are, and your

always readily available to him- he takes it for granted.

Don’t fully commit to a man who doesn’t give you everything that you need.

Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

Share this with other ladies….. You’ll make someone SMILE, another

RETHINK her choices, and another woman PREPARE.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate

them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them.

BY THE WAY, THIS WAS WRITTEN BY A MAN, SO TAKE A HINT………..

p.s.

after reading this again, i finally understood why i got so much reaction hehehehe…sorry…i underlined some things that are true and used the "strikethrough" for those that i do not agree to. i was thinking of adding some comments to some statements that i think needs to be qualified but i do not yet have the time…ill do it later happy reading and feel free to react. God bless!

i am trying to make the most of the few precious minutes that i have left before i will have to go home so i decided to drop by and unload…

i have this line to share to you guys? this line came from a guy…you can give your opinion regarding the matter; message me or post a comment, whichever…feel free okay?

"Without God in their lives, one hundred percent of the male population cheat."

so "men", is there any truth to that?

how about you gals (regardless of whether you were once cheated or not) what say you?

p.s.

i have something to say to that…

"Even some of those who have God in their lives cheat…" it is something that we have to live with hehehehe

when people think i’m superman er superwoman…

i start to think , "they’re crazy…man!" (roll eyes)

And so i wonder, "what are they thinking?"

"so insensitive…don’t they have feelings?"

when people think i’m superman or superwoman…whatever!

tasks pile up as if they want me to suffer

i go on wondering and fretting…i always do…

how will i ever finish all that they want me to do?

will i ever? i dunno…

(take me out of this dark my LORD…i’m afraid of the dark hehehehe)